That Which We Cannot Fathom

We had another good night's rest last night. Not quite as solid as the previous night but good. And we've been in to see Teo again.
He had a few small problems with the line that was directly in an artery taking his blood pressure - no problems with pressure itself - just with the line. So they have removed it and he now wears a cuff for BP. And he wasn't peeing, so they re-introduced the catheter to ensure fluids are moving. Last, they increased the level of morphine as he seems uncomfortable at times. Small things.
Otherwise, he continues to recover: He fed from a bottle again overnight and this morning. His eyes were open briefly but brightly this morning - at least the brightest in a few days. We expect his chest tube to also be removed today. Apparently it is one of the more uncomfortable drainage tubes as other older children have testified about this type of surgery. The other two drainage tubes will remain for awhile yet.
We also had the pleasure of seeing and speaking with Teo's surgeon who has assured us that Teo is doing very well and we can expect him to be moving to the ward today. "That which we cannot fathom" is that which I cannot even seeing it here day after day. It has not ceased to amaze me what these doctors and nurses have done and can do. It amazes me how quickly our little one has healed - to see him with all the tubes, he looks so vulnerable. Yet, he is well.
"That which we cannot fathom" is watching our surgeon calmly asking us if he may move on. And us seeing him move deftly but without anxiety, along with several other doctors and nurses, to another infant who is in trouble. It's not having any clue as to what goes on behind the curtain next to us. It is having to rely on others, on our child's own unknown path, on someOne else ... We've been asked to leave now and we sit by the fish tank again, this time hoping and praying for another. I am humbled by the role of these caregivers in all of our lives and by our need of them. I am humbled by what I never knew.
"That which we cannot fathom" is the purpose of all of this. Of who recovers well and who doesn't. We are so very thankful for our blessings right now.
"That which we cannot fathom" makes us thankful.

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